Gah

i hate falling for boys too fast.

It's terrible especially when they show interest, then just stop.

Like theres this guy that i was fooling around with, i thought we liked eachother, but now he just ignores me, and became a big douchebag.

Oh and plus he lives with me, and like he use to stay up late with me and stuff, now he goes to bed waaay too early for a fucking summer vacation.

I HATE HATE HATE him right now, but i want him at the same time .

=/

Wow, i forgot about my blog.

It's been a LONG time.

i just realized i had one of these, and i wanted to write in it again so here i am. ALOT has changed since i last wrote a entry. Like it's 2010 ! I hope you all are having a good easter. I am i love the time off school to just relax. So this is my last day off, so i decided hey why not write my blog.

Well alot has changed since september. Me and joel have drifted appart and don't talk to eachother, we got into a fight, he had a new gf idk he broke up with her now WHATEVER. I still love the fucker to death but i guess i might wait till the whole situation gets better ?
Me and derek broke up, yeah theres a reason behind it but lets not get into it. Sooo i've been living the single life, yah know flirtin around with people being a bit of a slut. But who cares ?
Grade 11 is going alright, i just can't wait till next year so i can get out of all this small town/highschool drama.

So yesturday i was looking on facebook, creeping local people's profiles and stuff. And theres this one girl. I won't tell you her name but i'll just say she is this person who is completely rediculous.She hangs out with a different crowd, a crowd that lives in a different two thats like 10 minutes away but here, but different none the less. And she has completely changed for them. She dresses the same way they do, listens to the same music now, and suddenly loves everything they do. Yes i know we all have friends that influence us to like different things but she is a generic copy of these people. And you know how you can change the sound of your voice sometimes, well you should hear hers whens shes around them. She sounds like a stuck up bitch. I know i may be a bit mean, but i'm telling the truth. And now she's apparently a huge fan of all of my favorite post hardcore/screamo/rock bands. She thinks she knows so much about them too which is fucking hilarious. Honestly, i hate when a band becomes really mainstream because a bunch of little poser kids starts "loving" them and is all amazed, i'm all like...yeah they kinda put out that song 3 years ago and youre only loving it now because a bunch of people love it.

In other words of music, justin bieber is garbage, he's repulsive and doesnt know how to even write a decent song. I swear his songs consist of one word or phrase and a bunch of bullshit with it.

I'm sorry, i like to rant a bit, and i kinda hate justin bieber. :)

Uhhh sooo..todays t D:

My summer vacation is soon comming to an end.
I've learned quite a bit this summer, about everything.
I've learned things i never knew about myself, and about others.
Sooo.. i snuck to see joel the other day, i'm gunna miss him like crazy. Derek is gone. BOO (N)
Joel got about 3 days left on this coast, I don't know how him leaving is gunna affect me.
But i'm starting grade 11 in a few days, and after that i'll soon be out of here. I can't wait !
I did'nt do much today, my friends were sappose to pick me up and we were sappose to chill but that never happened, so i hungout at the store for a bit..and then went home..and well now here we are. And i also thought i was gunna go drinking tonight, but jordhan and tanisha are no where to be found. -__- ugh. Plus i don't even know if i'm aloud to jordhans all night considering pinware is completely off limits. FML. Sometimes i hate my life so much. In a place like this..i see why people sometimes resort to moving as soon as possible or suicide. Luckly i'm not for the second choice. Sometimes I lose respect for people who commit suicide. Like.. life is a gift, yes life is hard sometimes, and people feel like they need a way out, suicide is not answer.
I LIKEEEEEEEEEEEEEE CUPCAKES.
Wow..i'm mature...XD
Nawh not really. You can tell with me..I'm not normal at all.. like the other night i went on facebook writing booooobies all over people's walls. xD well thats small town life for yah
Anyways, till next time. BOOOBIES ! yeah..well i fail.
EMMMA :D

OMG it's FRIDAY !

This is my first bloggg ! YAY :D

I would like to first say to whoever reads my blogs, thank you ! It really means alot.

I'm sort of new to all of this.

My life has been a bit hectic lately, I'm enjoying whats left to my summer break.

School's almost in, i'm a bit on both sides for that.

I've done quite a bit life changing things this summer.

I got my first job in the town hall here, that was fun. I worked with people i know, and my now ex boyfriend. I did an exceptional job this year..well believe i did.

My family didn't approve of my boyfriend..so we only did see eachother when i was etheir at work, or sometimes with my friends.

We ended up breaking up, i take the blame for that..it was all becomming too much for me to handle, my grandparents and aunt (whom i live with) hated him it seemed, so i gave up.

We did have some good times though, my friend jordhan, joel (my ex), and myself spent one night getting drunk on the beach with a few other people. It was pretty fun..me and joel were completely inlove, and we proved it eachother that night.

After we broke up..which was'nt that long ago. I began to see this other guy, derek.

He makes me smile, i like him alot. But just like joel..he is graduated and is moving away pretty soon. My family likes him, they drive me to his house and they trust him to take care of me.

But besides that, I went and did a bit of school shopping today.

That was alright, there's not many stores around here.

I'm kinda excieted to go back, but theres also the lazy part of me that dreads it.

But theres also the one part that hates the fact that i'm still letting go of joel..and derek.

I have regrets of breaking up with joel.. I hurt him terribly. And he's soon leaving..which makes it worse. I can't fix this now. And derek, he's been so good to me, and i also like him..i'll hate when he leaves as well. But i'm gunna keep this short and simple..cause it's friday. Sooo till next time. I'll see you all later.